another blog of fail?

hmm looks like lady luck is not on my side..or maybe not ever. but it's ok. oh i failed the c programming..XD 17/50. removals on monday..but i doubt that i'd be able to REMOVE anything except possibly myself in this equation. maybe i'm just unlucky or something..i'm the only one who will be left behind..i don't know..maybe it's just my unlucky streak. everyone has their bad days..but to me it's been a bad year already..what else is gonna be bad..people say don't think about bad things and they won't happen..but no matter what it always backfires..maybe this really isn't for me anymore. jap has been very helpful in easing my bad days i hope the network will give me the proverbial "golden week" thing..i hope i'd redeem myself in the following weeks.

as for the "EXAM WEEK" tomorrow is the last exam..the grammar exam for japanese class. and a continuation of the stuff that was discontinued yesterday. but tonight there's sysdev to be done.

Life Sucks, and then you die.

how perfect and timely is this quote right now..all the crap that happened today..and probably tomorrow till the day i die...it's probably gonna be like this. oh well. i only got 10 years to live anyway..

The case of the lucky cat. part five: foolish dreams

you can never tell what kind of past people have.

the streets of the world have created a lot of interesting characters.

always remember…money,status,cars,jewelery,lovers…

anything worth having is worth someone else stealing.

it’s how it is,and it’s how it’ll always be.

if someone takes something important from you, then be sure you take it back.

but don’t look for happiness in material goods…

…cause the thing that truly bonds us with one another…

…is the fact that we’ve all lost things we’ll never recover.

that’s…

…what makes us human.

part 2

this was the latest development..back in 2008 LOL. although it was not used, just conceptualized but was a template or something for the final product.

Volleyball Live 2007...delayed backtrack Sunday.

i was browsing through my old files and blogs that were...discontinued due to lack of personal drive and interest..and i came across this. a memento of that hell named "thesis", most people are skeptical about us..of course i did not program it but i can proudly say anything about how i designed it..painstakingly. but it's cool. finally i might get it back -> the program..programmed by kuya harry and keen_coder(sorry kuya i forgot your name but your username is well remembered by yours truly).

infinite loop.

This is the current problem I'm facing right now. especially in the programming class, i've been thinking of a lot of ways to solve. there were some that helped me a lot and there were some that weren't as much use as possible. i couldn't even care less of what's gonna happen tomorrow, i'm not risking myself to come to school tomorrow...why? there's sona..plus the anniversary of INC as it was announced on tv. there's even a "shallow" low pressure area that's already in effect, even if it's just a training center.. why would i risk a lot of traffic + stress + "insert-other-crap-here" to ruin my half-day..i could've done a lot of programming if that was me. so tomorrow. i decide my own schedule..therefore tomorrow I WILL NOT GO. PERIOD. XD

わたし は あした だいがくいん え いきません。

as far as my day is concerned. it's been good. i had a good night's rest. and it was comfortable to be honest. i'm lucky to have at least relaxed myself after that hard day yesterday..although back to reality folks!

Today in Embedded_Class 1-1

here is the ichi-nensei correspondent Raidon desu~ delivering the report...or the weekly report..

intro:
today was a day that sealed most people's fate......NOT. just kidding. it was more of a slugfest.....NOT. it was just your normal day..we reported and..well...just like that.

topic marker:
around last night i received a text message with regards to some missing elements for the sys dev report.. and i fell asleep. LOL. i haven't even touched C Language ever since..which is like..hmm i should'nt have done that. i woke up at around 5:30 am and tried to fix a few things..i didn't really know what's up..but i tried my best to fix every single crap that was requested. and it was fixed. then added to the slides. that was a sigh of relief on my part. who's going to report was the other question and i don't know what to do next. anyway as we eat out and feel the time, we got the number 4...so we had to wait until 2 pm for the report which is really not good because it sucks. anyways we prepared ourselves for an asskicking of a lifetime..LOL..or did we?


what happened:
and so 2 pm came, and we went in there to that dark room and it was actually cold..that is the BEST place to report at least i didn't feel any pressure, even breaking a sweat...although they're opinion of me might have changed a bit somehow..but we all know that most people know better than me, so unfortunately that's the truth. i love to learn from people but i don't like people dictating sh*t to my face. and so my part was done and the 16 slides were gone as if it was yesterday..i've gone through 8 defenses in college...+ 1 in Cypress. LOL all those 8 have been with my friends and classmates in college. the +1 was all alone. and today was with a different group.

wrap-up:
after that it was all over like nothing happened. usually at college it's gonna be the talk of the town for at least a few days..but today was all business. and that's what i want. should i fail in first quarter..it's not yet over. maybe for up ittc but not my career ^_^

problem encountered:
C Language.
I WENT HOME LATE T_T

Form1.Show,Form2.Hide. Unload Me

and now the end of the week or should i say school week is coming soon..actually it is today..i'm gonna do a double post. ^_^

first things off..the programming is literally taunting at us..like monday? wtf? i won't ask him if he's nuts..i'll ask him if he's on crack..or whatever the hell he's smoking..LOL anyways..i really hate those expectations..i don't think it'd be enough. we also have a presentation tomorrow, which is another question mark..what in the blue hell is gonna be presented? incomplete document? expect a lot of questions i don't even know how they do defenses in UP but i sure as hell know what it's like back then in AMA, this is why i'm always shivering whenever i do public speaking because i hate it so much. there's this fear..too much fear..maybe a phobia that will never be erased..how do i beat this phobia? get more exposure..or maybe act like an idiot..i'll try to be myself one step at a time during this..

next. exams were cancelled..good. bad thing is..every single sh*t is gonna be up for next week. whatever happened to WEEKEND? wish i had fast logic..a lot of people can be capable programmers because they have damn good logic..mine takes time..a lot and too much time. 2 and a half weeks is not enough..i didn't really learn anything. now should i fail in the subject..i will fail that teacher as well. anyways UP is not going to be the end of the line should i get kicked out or removed from the training course..

coming up. i was supposed to be sleeping why the hell am i awake? maybe because i'm pissed off..it's always like that. anyways saturday is coming up and we have a lot of activities..even those 'birthdays' whatsoever.. anyways i've got only a few hours of sleep. pretty much f*cked up myself over here.

cheers.

Killing Moon. ~just because i couldn't think of a freaking title~

me and around me:
it's sunny today..atsui desu yo ne? T_T tried wearing my coach shirt. ^_^ had some nice chit-chat with a few peeps. oh here's the webby..http://upittcbatch5.co.cc/ since the batch has no name yet well that's it for the meantime.

today's activity:
jap daisuki! I.T. daikirai! hahaha

this week's outlook:
decision day is coming soon, don't know what i'll really do by then. dad will buy a new truck/car i sure hope and pray he won't fail on that endeavor. money is difficult to acquire. i'm not even self-sufficient yet. no changes except there's this birthday celebration this sat. and there's also a presentation this sat too..i wonder why am i not scared..maybe it's because i'm used to it..and i'm really pissed off. XD

currently doing:
watching The Rock, The Most Electrifying man in sports entertainment. pure awesomeness. disc 1 then 2.

current dilemma:
C Programming. my future. upcoming reports. upcoming DATA STRUCTURES/DISCRETE PART 2 exam this friday.

grades:
CS: 14/30 failed, removals: 22/30 failed, CSF: already took the exam for Discrete Mathematics but i think i flopped the exam..i should wait for the Data Structures exam, SysDev: took the exam but doesn't know the results yet, PLF 7/10 failed, removals:10/10 passed and perfected it. i won't mention jap because that's the elective subject and we all know how i'm doing in it...i'm doing good! XD, too bad i failed today by just one point. Jap is 58.5/69 YEAH! I got late but i passed. XD well..that just shows how i love the subject..if i had the instruction NOT to use kanji then i could've kicked ass by 10 points more. hahaha should've been 68.5 oh well.. at least. that shows that my years of watching lot of japanese stuff REALLY does payoff.

we are the nation...oh wait..wrong thread.

me and around me:
dark skies and angry looking clouds. that's just like it everywhere. you can sense the stress of yesterday from all of those 5 senses that you have..it's tough but you just have to get by.

today's activity:
hmm got late but was able to practice in grammar in japanese. there's also I.T., i don't actually get it but finally i got a c program working. i sure hope this is up to standards. if not. i quit.

this week's outlook:
decision day is coming soon, don't know what i'll really do by then. dad will buy a new truck/car i sure hope and pray he won't fail on that endeavor. money is difficult to acquire. i'm not even self-sufficient yet.

currently doing:
watching The Rock, The Most Electrifying man in sports entertainment. pure awesomeness.

current dilemma:
C Programming. my future. upcoming reports. upcoming exam this friday.

grades:
CS: 14/30 failed, removals: 22/30 failed, CSF: already took the exam for Discrete Mathematics but i think i flopped the exam..i should wait for the Data Structures exam, SysDev: took the exam but doesn't know the results yet, PLF 7/10 failed, removals:10/10 passed and perfected it. i won't mention jap because that's the elective subject and we all know how i'm doing in it...i'm doing good! XD, too bad i failed today by just one point. no exam today, but there is an exam tomorrow on jap.

another crappy day.

me and around me:
it's pretty much..meh...nothing new and exciting it's just the same boredom i guess..boredom kills by the way. what can i do? it kept raining...the weather was so bad..the people were ill-mannered...i'm sick of those plastic smiles.

today's activity:
gozen hachiji to gozen juuji was the fun time..it's the best stress reliever ever. despite the fact that i'm one point short to passing the quiz well it's ok..i paid the price for getting late. sorry. i'll try to do better next time. gozen juuji to gogo juuichiji well it kinda pissed me off. there was an exam today..and i f*cked up. during this time we were being taught C Language..if only C were fun just like learning Nihongo then i might have reconsidered staying at the school.

this week's outlook:
i saw something like a good sign of things to come. i might quit this week and move to meralco, because i think i should just focus on cisco networking now rather than stick with this..

currently doing:
just opened up the pc, just came home...yes it's already this late. might watch a few eps then sleep. try to wake up at 4 to do some assignments

current dilemma:
C Programming. my future.

grades:
CS: 14/30 failed, removals: 22/30 failed, CSF: already took the exam for Discrete Mathematics but i think i flopped the exam..i should wait for the Data Structures exam, SysDev: took the exam but doesn't know the results yet, PLF 7/10 failed, removals:10/10 passed and perfected it. i won't mention jap because that's the elective subject and we all know how i'm doing in it...i'm doing good! XD, too bad i failed today by just one point. -lesson for the day- "Don't get late." -the problem is...i can't do that.

2nd post.

me and around me:
kind of a troubled,rainy day..whatsoever. trying to program and do stuff but still can't. haven't even studied for the exams tomorrow..but who gives a sh*t? it's not that I'm being too laid back or anything, i just feel like this thing I'm doing right now..isn't up to what i expected. but since I'm currently in it..i just have to walk it. do i have choices? i do. so many choices that I'd have to make and do..and learn.

today's activity:
read the classifieds and found a lot of IT jobs. "wow that's cool isn't it?" but what's not cool is that some needs some skills i don't know and some discriminate but hey..look who's talking? i'm already 21, i'm at the age that is employable XD. anyways i've found 6 companies, although i'm not really optimistic on those if they'd still want me, i'm not really in an "applying" mode but i can do it whenever possible.

this week's outlook:
more exams, more possible failures(i hope not but some of it can't be helped), more stuff to do, kanji and grammar(which is good), programming which is another crash course(i wonder how some of them understand and i can't), can't wait for next saturday(oh wait, there's an upcoming presentation..what the hell are we supposed to present?), my current stay is getting ridiculous, and you know me when i get disappointed on a thing -> you don't hear a single word of it from me, EVER again.

currently doing:
watching raw from july 6, looking for program samples because i still couldn't get it, there's this upcoming discrete math exam and it's like it's gonna kill me, and after 5 days..slash the 2 so we only have 3 days left on lecture and 7 more days for exercises, don't expect me to learn quick because i can't. sorry.

current dilemma:
C Programming.

grades:
CS: 14/30 failed, removals: 22/30 failed, CSF: no exam yet, SysDev: took the exam but doesn't know the results yet, PLF 7/10 failed, removals:10/10 passed and perfected it. i won't mention jap because that's the elective subject and we all know how i'm doing in it...i'm doing good! XD

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