half-day didn't mean anything actually

alright i've done a few things and i think i'm not gonna be at school tomorrow. so i'll be back by monday i guess i'll just finish this all up and then go ahead and rest for the weekend after all i'm all f*cked up for not ACTUALLY doing anything it's because my mind is refusing to do it. i don't know, perhaps hate is a strong word, and it is a strong emotion, therefore i'll make a promise right now and do something tonight and pass EVERYTHING from the exercises and whatsoever, i'll just go visit the doctor probably on saturday just to have a checkup or maybe to the dentist i don't know, we're good at making excuses and explanations so i better give one probably next week, but you know what i'm starting to feel a bit neet-like. like there is a need for me to come back to work and just get the appropriate short course, because i just need to. this is probably the last waves of my immaturity i'm learning some life lessons the hard way and regrets really are teaching me how to handle such decisions. anyways, i've made up my mind and i'll pursue networking at IETI this is the nearest in my vicinity just a walking distance from my home, i hope i'll learn and after that 40 hours is over, i'll think about it and probably go through with finding work soon. i don't know where, but i'll try my best. they said that CISCO is available on Tuesdays however i don't know for sure yet..but i'll try probably next month after this stint with UP ITTC is over. look, my parents did not push me for this, i pushed myself..maybe i took more than i could, and it's starting to break apart which is bad. and before it escalates and becomes worse, i must break the chain. now i'm wondering what's gonna happen to japanese lessons now that i might be gone there soon, i might come back or i might not. but the japanese lessons are just so awesome, i skipped class today just to finish kanji even though i'm not yet a master of it, but i'll do better next time, at least i'm already good with memorizing those stuff i hope to improve in the next years. Japan will always be my target. whether i'll work there, or live there..that will be my final frontier.